Longing For Reason.

Not as hard as I thought it would be. He hasn’t texted me either. I mean, why would he? We went from being each others everything to, well, nothing. But I guess that’s life.

I miss him.

I want to go back to the time when things were good.

Being alone sucks.

My heart hurts.

Goodnight.

Sometimes I think I’ll really get through this and that everything will be fine. But other times, all I can think about is how I want him back. Like, if he doesn’t text me back right away, I go into psychotic ex girlfriend mode and freak out. But then he texts me back and I’m okay again. He just haaaad to get that damn girlfriend. I was completely fine and happy, then he is with her and it’s like reality punched me in the face, and now I feel like I made a huge mistake.

Remember all the reasons why I left him.- He’s not this great person I make him out to be. I mean, after a two year relationship, it only took him a month and a half to get a new girlfriend.

Be with friends and people who can cheer me up.- Being alone all the time is obviously just going to make me sad. When you’re with people who can make you laugh, you won’t have the ability to be sad.

Keep busy.- Even if it’s doing laundry, dishes or even homework, you won’t have time to be sad. If you keep your mind busy, you can’t think about all of the things that are bringing you down.

I don’t text him obsessively.- I shouldn’t be texting him at all, but it’s hard not to. It’s just a simple, Hey, how was your day? But I should just stop. I’ll never be able to let go if he’s still a part of my life.

111 questions just waiting to turn into an F.

Are all over the place right now. I don’t even know who I am anymore..

I need to distance myself from him. It’s going to be hard. But I know I can do it.