February 2012
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I'll always believe in love...
I don’t know if it’s appropriate to say I was completely madly in love with him. But, I did love him, and he did mean a lot to me. I just know the relationship we had, wasn’t true love.
I look at my grandparents, who have been married for 65 years. My grandfather isn’t always there anymore when it comes to knowing where he is, or who others are. But he knows my...
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Spanish flash cards or The Lion King...
The choice is obvious.
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Stupid damn feelings...
I’m finally getting over you. It’s a little at a time. I don’t think about you nearly as often as I used to. But there’s times when I do. We told each other we wouldn’t end up hating each other. No I don’t hate you. But I do dislike you. It’s funny how at one point you loved someone so much. But when everything is said and done, you look back at all those...
Naps aren't meant for dreaming about ex...
Brain you should know that.
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I am now 17 years old...
And I’ve never actually dated anyone. I know I was with douche bag for a few years, but that relationship was stupid. Here’s a tip: actually get to know the person before you become “boyfriend and girlfriend.” so here I am. I’ve been asked out on two dates already, and I’m sooo lost on where it all goes from here. Awesome.
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I will never swim in a public pool again.
Ugh.
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My. Car. Broke. Down...
In. The. Middle. Of. The. Road.
I need a nap..
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I hate (people problems)...
How our basketball student section will only stand up and cheer if it’s a close game.
People who think that going to OU for sibs weekend isn’t fun unless you’re drunk.
When a girl that everyone hates gets into a car accident, all of a sudden has so many friends telling her to get well soon.
When that same girl deliberately try’s to get sympathy for being in that car...
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The guilt...
I know the whole goal of breaking up, is to be okay and happy again. Nobody ever talks about the guilt you feel when you actually start feeling okay. It’s also fear. Fear of letting go of the past I guess. It’s like, you feel bad that you are happy without that person.
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My..friend, class mate, person...just updated her...
They have only been together for 5 months….FIVE months…she’s a year older than I am. I mean congratulations and all but, come on…Really?
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A normal person would be ecstatic about this..I...
So there’s this guy that I’ve known for a few years. He was my bestfriends step brother kinda…My bestfriends mom was in a relationship with his mom..anyways..I’ve known him a long time. Very nice. Very quiet. We never really talked. Well tonight I liked his Facebook status, which lead to him texting me, which eventually led him to telling me how mature I am, how beautiful I...
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“It’s funny how people you know become people you knew. How you would talk...”
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The thing is...
You gave me a lot of reasons to leave you. And now that I’ve left, you’re giving me a lot of reasons to hate you.
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Oh the weekend...
Saturday: ACT test bright and early. I guess being able to take it for free should be some sort of motivation. But it is a 4 hour test.
Sunday: Sleep! It will be the first day I get to sleep in in like 2 weeks!
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This whole "finding myself" thing...
Is nothing but feeling sad and lonely all the time.
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I don't want to think about him anymore...
It hurts too much.
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“You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between....”
– Johnny Cash - You Are My Sunshine
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So I had a great birthday, except...
He didn’t text me to tell me happy birthday. I mean, I get it. He’s moved on. He’s got her. I shouldn’t be mad. But it’s hard because I feel like this past week he has just acted like I don’t even exist. And that really hurts. I can remember my first birthday I had when I was with him. He called me at midnight just to tell me he loved me and to say happy...
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January 2012
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Day two of not texting him...
Not as hard as I thought it would be. He hasn’t texted me either. I mean, why would he? We went from being each others everything to, well, nothing. But I guess that’s life.
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“Sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you’re best without.”
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“You know you’re better than that. So put the past behind you. You just...”
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My moment of weakness...
I miss him.
I want to go back to the time when things were good.
Being alone sucks.
My heart hurts.
Goodnight.
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I'm trying to let go, but it's hard...
Sometimes I think I’ll really get through this and that everything will be fine. But other times, all I can think about is how I want him back. Like, if he doesn’t text me back right away, I go into psychotic ex girlfriend mode and freak out. But then he texts me back and I’m okay again. He just haaaad to get that damn girlfriend. I was completely fine and happy, then he is with...
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Ways I'm trying to feel better and be happy...
Remember all the reasons why I left him.- He’s not this great person I make him out to be. I mean, after a two year relationship, it only took him a month and a half to get a new girlfriend.
Be with friends and people who can cheer me up.- Being alone all the time is obviously just going to make me sad. When you’re with people who can make you laugh, you won’t have the ability...
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Anatomy bone test tomorrow...
111 questions just waiting to turn into an F.
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My emotions...
Are all over the place right now. I don’t even know who I am anymore..
Nope I need to be strong...
I need to distance myself from him. It’s going to be hard. But I know I can do it.
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I just wrote him a letter...
Some reason..I do want him back. And in not going to sit by while he develops more feelings for this girl. I don’t want my chance to fly out the window and be gone forever. He was a huge part of my life. I regret letting him go, and yes, chances are, he’s going to stay with her, and say no to me. But how will I ever know, if I don’t ever try? But still..I have to think about if I...
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