I miss him.
I want to go back to the time when things were good.
Being alone sucks.
My heart hurts.
Goodnight.
Sometimes I think I’ll really get through this and that everything will be fine. But other times, all I can think about is how I want him back. Like, if he doesn’t text me back right away, I go into psychotic ex girlfriend mode and freak out. But then he texts me back and I’m okay again. He just haaaad to get that damn girlfriend. I was completely fine and happy, then he is with her and it’s like reality punched me in the face, and now I feel like I made a huge mistake.
He says he still loves me, but he’s trying to “move on”…Well he can go fuck himself.
Because I know it’s just gonna hurt when I see all the girls he has been hanging out with… Yes, I did break up with him, but still. It’s not like all those feeling have completely gone away. It’s just, I haven’t done a thing in two months, and he’s already been out on a hand full of dates. We were together for two years..and he’s acting like none of that ever happened..
He hardly ever called me.
He didn’t trust me.
He never supported me.
I would go weeks without seeing him because he never tried to see me.
His friends were ten times more important than me. ALL the time.
He made me feel guilty about a lot of things.
I never could picture a future with him.
I just became more mature than him.
We were on two different roads that were miles apart.
I didn’t miss him when he was gone.
I realized that I deserved better.
And I can’t shake the feeling that it’s the worst decision I’ve ever made.
About if I want this anymore. If I want…him, anymore.
I…Don’t know how to feel about that.
